What if the past experience(s) caused EXTREME anxiety and guilt ALL and EVERY DAY! OCD and guilt – understanding why you feel that you’ve done wrong. But recently when I look things up on the internet to "fap" to I feel nothing but guilt and I bring it on myself. It's like a constant circle of negativity and low self-esteem. Real event OCD can be insidious because along with anxious thoughts and feelings, it also presents with pervasive feelings of guilt and shame about something which you did in the past. Please don't take it like I don't appreciate what you have to say, because I do and I thank you for it. I realize when people look at me they don't immediately think of how I've fucked up, they just think of me or see me and don't think of things I've done first thing unless it's brought up. Real event ocd Sign in to follow this . Hello everyone, Posted on September 9, 2020 September 9, 2020 by Yan Baskets. Then when I'm scrolling through things I'll see something on there and start obsessing about the age of the person. I'm going to apologize ahead of time because my post is going to be all over the place, but I'm just having to get this out there because it's eating me alive. Then it started to bother me and of course I searched the movie and the person was 16 years old when they filmed it. Real event OCD. TRIGGER WARNINGS. It … Feeling guilt and shame demonstrates that you strive to be a good person. They will not judge you, they have heard many, many things. There's some things people are into that I think are crazy, but they'd think the same thing about the things I'm into, and that's okay! I relate massively to real event ocd. By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. Press J to jump to the feed. Ask the Therapist . have a chance at redemption and you do as well. If you think there is any way of resolving or helping what you did before, you can try. So that helps me a bit. The days I spent in bed staring at a blank wall pulling my hair out I could have literally walked to Vladivostok and back – several times. We may feel guilt or shame due to the event for a short time. Obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) affects your thoughts and behaviors in a way that might make you feel weird or different. It tears me up inside and I can't let go of these thoughts at all. I think when people look at me, they don't immediately see what I've done. It's where your interests connect you with your people. That's all you can do. Things like today and seeing these things accidentally make me realize that I have a problem. Even when a real event is the trigger for OCD rumination, the actions—compulsions—taken to deal with the thoughts about a true or imagined occurrence are the problem, not the thoughts about it or its potential consequences. I feel the same way. Thank you for replying, but I have done some awful things. If you think there is any way of resolving or helping what you did before, you can try. Well I was scrolling through it and I saw someone on there who looked relatively young, clicked away and found other porn to look at and finished. All I ever do anymore is sit around and think about the kind of person I have been. When I look for things I usually go to safe sites. You can call it “hOCD,” “rOCD,” “scrupulosity OCD,” “pOCD, “ and, yes, “real-event OCD,” if you like. Some websites and professionals call this OCD theme something like real-life OCD, because an event did take place in real life that has become the focus of the sufferer. Real event OCD can be insidious because along with anxious thoughts and feelings, it also presents with pervasive feelings of guilt and shame about something which you did in the past. I'm sorry you have those feeling too, it's a hard feeling to deal with and I hope it gets easier for you. Though I am much younger than you, I have too done some terrible, terrible things and I often ruminate about them and consider myself a monster. My Confession: Sexual OCD, POCD, Real-Event OCD, and The Constant Shame I Bring On Myself. Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. OCD often changes its focus from one theme to another but all its many manifestations share a common underlying cognitive feature: intolerance of uncertainty. I'm sorry for offending anyone, but I needed to post this. A subreddit dedicated to discussion, articles, and images regarding OCD. It hurt to look at anyone I loved because I thought that I didn't deserve them, and that they would rightfully despise me/be repulsed at me/think of me entirely different if they knew what I did, so I definitely relate to what you're saying. You are focusing on past events and magnifying their importance. Today I was "fapping" and on a safe movie website where they add movie scenes and you can scroll through their recent additions. It wasn't until I got older that I realized what a piece of shit I've been in my life and that I didn't deserve to be alive. Please read below for more information and resources about about OCD and what this subreddit is! By realizing this, you already have such an advantage over your intrusive thoughts although it probably doesn’t feel this way. A subreddit dedicated to discussion, articles, and images regarding OCD. REAL EVENT OCD. The good news, however, is the treatment is the same no matter what type of OCD you have. I'm so terrified people will find out, but if that day ever happened I would own up to it. Discussions about so-called “real-life” OCD imply that obsessions about events that actually happened, rather than about future-oriented, hypothetical possibilities, are somehow more valid. I'm almost 30 years old and up until my mid-20's I did some things that I'm not proud of. I met an amazing woman who is the only person I've ever truly wanted to be with, but I've slowly realized she was put in my life to make me realize what an awful human being I've been and to punish me for it by the fact that I can never be with her. Cookies help us deliver our Services. Real-Event OCD, Guilt, and Pornography. Many people with OCD experience extreme guilt. I sound like I'm making excuses and I'm trying not to, but telling myself I'm not actively searching these things out doesn't help and I just sit there and think to myself. We tend to learn from our errors and then move forward. Are you doing cbt? New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. I've been going to this website for years and have never had to worry about this and now I'm feeling awful about it, like I'm a straight up sick human being. The 'you're a terrible person' brain reminder is also very current for me. I was living with my brother-in-law while our house was being built. For years I thought I was a terrible person and as soon as I started reading up on Real Event OCD I realised there was a name for it, and other people like me. Thank You and I hope it gets easier for you as well! This topic has 10 replies, 3 voices, and was last updated 3 weeks ago by anita. Although, I think that can be said for a lot of kinks! The sufferer believes they made an egregious mistake or have even committed a crime (what they did was so terrible), yet everyone around them responds that no such crime exists or that the mistake is nothing to worry about. i don't know if i can accept not thinking about it without feeling bad. Please read below for more information and resources about about OCD and what this subreddit is! It sounds like you need to see a counselor about this. I'm a binge eater as well and I eat food like a drug addict would take drugs. It was absolute HELL and I had no idea that this was a form of OCD. You are different and you recognize your mistakes, no matter how horrible they were. With everything that's been going on in Hollywood and all of the awful acts that men have been doing to women and other celebrities it adds to my constant guilt. Sometimes I think of this and while I've not done any truly horrible things, I've done things that make me cringe and I avoid anything to bring me back to any thoughts regarding stupid past decisions. I remember desperately hoping that it was a nightmare and I didn't actually do it but I was left with reality. Home → Forums → Tough Times → Real event OCD obsession. I've got to be the only sick person in my group of friends/family/work environment etc. If you've recognized some of the things you've done in the past as wrong, you're on the path to becoming a much better person. I've never downloaded or found anything illegal, but that doesn't stop my immoral behavior or pictures I've "fapped" to or the different subjects. Followers 0. I’ve cut so many websites out because they have that stuff on there. We all have our own battles. Re: Real Event OCD & Guilt by throwaway5487 » Wed Apr 19, 2017 11:22 pm but did I molest my sibling somehow? I haven't posted in a while because I've actually been doing a lot better lately but there's something I just want to get off my chest. This episode tackles the very real, and very troubling, OCD subtype known as Real Event, or Real Life, OCD. Certain symptoms can trigger this feeling, such as having sexual or violent thoughts or believing that you are responsible for causing harm to others. From what I read in your post, you didn't know that what you did was wrong when you committed the acts. That's all you can do. This is something I’ve never dealt with. Now something new has come up. For what it's worth, whatever you've done, whatever your shameful of, I forgive you. You can get the help, and possible medication that may alleviate some of these issues. I've never raped or molested anyone, but I was into some taboo fantasies when it comes to masturbation fantasies or watching things on the internet. Okay so I have a very close friend that I've … We were there for 6 months. It's pretty difficult for me to get through the day without thinking about suicide. I don't want to be a sick human being but I realize that I am and I know how incoherent my post is. Yes this is real event my ocd. I know that I'm probably going to offend people and I'm sorry, especially to every woman in the world I've ever been disrespectful to. - Overwhelming feelings of guilt or shame. December 7, 2020 at 9:38 am #370580. sad.cloud. Common Real Event OCD Compulsions - Mental review - Trying hard to figure out what exactly happened, why it happened, and what it says about you as a person - Trying to recall all the little details of the event (while constantly questioning the accuracy of your recollection) Feeling guilt and shame demonstrates that you strive to be a good person. Thank you for the kindness. I am not going to reassure you about the situation because that’s what makes it worse. All of my kink-material is artwork or erotica, so not even real, but sometimes I still feel gross, too. We tend to learn from our errors and then move forward. SO SO Difficult when it's based on real stuff, but the brain distorts it. Also know that OCD distorts, caracturizes, and blows up mistakes that you've been over before. I hope things get easier for you! When I look at others I don't think first of what stupid or mean thing they've done. Even murderers, rapists, etc. Where other people don’t retain these situations. Real event ocd. My apologies there and I appreciate you writing your experiences and support. New Reply. I remember thinking "what would Mom think about me if she knew this?" I actually prefer women who are older than myself and I always have but that doesn't stop me from feeling guilt. I stopped the really "abhorrent" fantasies years ago but I never stopped masturbating. Clearly it's really affecting your self-image and how you think of yourself. *Trigger Warning* I'm going to apologize ahead of time because my post is going to be all over the place, but I'm just having to get this out there because it's eating me alive. My mind convinces me i am a rapist and a bad person and obviously the last thing i want is to be that so it causes me immense anxiety at times. Posts. I just want to stop feeling guilt and I understand that I bring it on myself. I'll be better some days than others and then it'll come back full force. ... but sometimes they have stuff on there from when an actress was 16/17 years old and if I come across it I feel intense shame. Check out my ONLINE self-directed program for OCD. The breeze that becomes a tornado. I think that's also common with some kinks, if not all of them, haha. I actually prefer the more non-gratuitous stuff like you would find in movies. There are so many variations of OCD: hit-and-run OCD, harm OCD, and real event OCD, to name a few. Home » OCD » Unsure if Real Event Should Be Treated as OCD or Not. By helloocd, December 27, 2018 in Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Reply to this topic; ... but it would be a shame to allow that to continue to define the rest of your life. Re: Tips for dealing with Real Event OCD by Snaga » Tue May 30, 2017 6:43 pm NoTrevelyan1995 wrote: Then when I'm around the person who I love more than anything in this world, all I do is sit there and think that she would hate me a shun me if she ever found out these things about me. Just them. Press J to jump to the feed. I discuss this subtype, including its common obsessions, compulsions, and treatment. This all-encompassing fear that karma will come to "get" me, that I am a despicable person for decisions I made in my past and that I'll be "cancelled" for my mistakes. I know that I'm not actively searching for it, but when things like today happen it brings me back to my guilt. It conjures up memories of something that you did which was … Viewing 11 posts - 1 through 11 (of 11 total) Author. I'm terrified to even type this out because What if someone comes and arrest me and everyone finds out what a sick freak I am, but I can't hold it in any longer. I’m sorry if I offend anyone. It's like a feeling I don't deserve happiness. We had to share a room with my 1 yr old and it’s a small house. You were only move forward if you learn not to seek reassurance from others and stop reviewing the situation. or is that one of those things where I might never know and should move on? Unfortunately I did know better, I should've made that more clear on my part. I'm not trying to discredit you or say that your problems aren't bad at all! So to start off I want to say that I've never officially been diagnosed with OCD/Anxiety but I'm almost 95% sure I have it because I do nothing but live with guilt/fear about every bad thing I've done, especially when it comes to Sexual Things. We may feel guilt or shame due to the event for a short time. The self-awareness aspect came about a year after something I did which was absolutely disgusting and I hated, even loathed, myself for a very long time. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. If it weren't for this prevalent culture I honestly think I wouldn't be struggling with real event OCD nearly as badly today. I've even done NoFap and done pretty good on some long streaks but it never eases the guilt. I wouldn't have these problems if I would just "fap" to my fantasies instead of searching for stuff. I have a kink that I've had since I was a kid, and if people knew about it, they'd probably think I was sick. my OCD first manifested in the form of real event OCD with overwhelming feelings of guilt, shame and regret. I just feel the immense guilt from seeing it while searching through other things. How to End Feelings of Shame when You Have OCD. But I can't let them go because I feel like that's the wrong thing to do and all I can ever think is about what would people really think about me if they knew about my shame. I still think about it sometimes--less than before--but it's still often. I know that porn isn't healthy and it's not a solution. Unsure if Real Event Should Be Treated as OCD or Not Asked … Also know that OCD distorts, caracturizes, and blows up mistakes that you've been over before. I also suggest seeking a therapist, one who specializes in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. If this is true, you didn't purposefully do anything wrong at the time, it was born out of ignorance and maybe impulse; if this is not true, remember that everyone makes mistakes and does wrong things. I know that I am, but I don't want to be a bad man but when these things happen I feel like my world is closing in around me. We may feel guilt or shame due to the event for a short time. Anyways. We tend to learn from our errors and then move forward. It's important to know that you are not the person you were before. We have all made mistakes in our life. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. I've done some awful things in my life, I'm almost 30 years old, and it wasn't until recently that my self-awareness kicked in, and I hate that it's taking me so long to become aware of things. I agree that I need to see someone and this is what I worried about when I typed out my message is that I don't really have a kink for it. See what Real Event OCD looks like and what the treatment is. What if the past experience(s) caused EXTREME anxiety and guilt ALL and EVERY DAY! Sex was out of the question. I have accepted that I need to stop analysing the event itself, and that the OCD is the problem - but I'm at a loss as to how to actually manage this and overcome it. I start it soon. Participant. Additio... – Luister direct op jouw tablet, telefoon of browser naar Real Event OCD, Cancel Culture, and Reassurance van FearCast - geen downloads nodig. I need to take my own advice, too! If it helps, though, I can totally relate. 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